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CHAPTER XI
The Ghost has attained the southernmost point
of the arc she is describing across the Pacific, and is already beginning to
edge away to the west and north toward some lone island, it is rumoured, where
she will fill her water-casks before proceeding to the season’s hunt along the
coast of Japan. The hunters have experimented and practised with their
rifles and shotguns till they are satisfied, and the boat-pullers and steerers
have made their spritsails, bound the oars and rowlocks in leather and sennit
so that they will make no noise when creeping on the seals, and put their boats
in apple-pie order — to use Leach’s homely phrase. His arm, by
the way, has healed nicely, though the scar will remain all his life.
Thomas Mugridge lives in mortal fear of him, and is afraid to venture on deck
after dark. There are two or three standing quarrels in the
forecastle. Louis tells me that the gossip of the sailors finds its way
aft, and that two of the telltales have been badly beaten by their mates.
He shakes his head dubiously over the outlook for the man Johnson, who is
boat-puller in the same boat with him. Johnson has been guilty of
speaking his mind too freely, and has collided two or three times with Wolf
Larsen over the pronunciation of his name. Johansen he thrashed on the
amidships deck the other night, since which time the mate has called him by his
proper name. But of course it is out of the question that Johnson should
thrash Wolf Larsen. Louis has
also given me additional information about Death Larsen, which tallies with the
captain’s brief description. We may expect to meet Death Larsen on the
Japan coast. “And look out for squalls,” is Louis’s prophecy, “for they
hate one another like the wolf whelps they are.” Death Larsen is in
command of the only sealing steamer in the fleet, the Macedonia, which carries fourteen boats,
whereas the rest of the schooners carry only six. There is wild talk of
cannon aboard, and of strange raids and expeditions she may make, ranging from
opium smuggling into the States and arms smuggling into China, to blackbirding
and open piracy. Yet I cannot but believe for I have never yet caught him
in a lie, while he has a cyclopaedic knowledge of sealing and the men of the
sealing fleets. As it is
forward and in the galley, so it is in the steerage and aft, on this veritable
hell-ship. Men fight and struggle ferociously for one another’s
lives. The hunters are looking for a shooting scrape at any moment
between Smoke and Henderson, whose old quarrel has not healed, while Wolf
Larsen says positively that he will kill the survivor of the affair, if such
affair comes off. He frankly states that the position he takes is based
on no moral grounds, that all the hunters could kill and eat one another so far
as he is concerned, were it not that he needs them alive for the hunting.
If they will only hold their hands until the season is over, he promises them a
royal carnival, when all grudges can he settled and the survivors may toss the
non-survivors overboard and arrange a story as to how the missing men were lost
at sea. I think even the hunters are appalled at his
cold-bloodedness. Wicked men though they be, they are certainly very much
afraid of him. Thomas
Mugridge is cur-like in his subjection to me, while I go about in secret dread
of him. His is the courage of fear, — a strange thing I know well of
myself, — and at any moment it may master the fear and impel him to the taking
of my life. My knee is much better, though it often aches for long
periods, and the stiffness is gradually leaving the arm which Wolf Larsen squeezed.
Otherwise I am in splendid condition, feel that I am in splendid
condition. My muscles are growing harder and increasing in size. My
hands, however, are a spectacle for grief. They have a parboiled
appearance, are afflicted with hang-nails, while the nails are broken and
discoloured, and the edges of the quick seem to be assuming a fungoid sort of
growth. Also, I am suffering from boils, due to the diet, most likely,
for I was never afflicted in this manner before. I was
amused, a couple of evenings back, by seeing Wolf Larsen reading the Bible, a
copy of which, after the futile search for one at the beginning of the voyage,
had been found in the dead mate’s sea-chest. I wondered what Wolf Larsen
could get from it, and he read aloud to me from Ecclesiastes. I could
imagine he was speaking the thoughts of his own mind as he read to me, and his
voice, reverberating deeply and mournfully in the confined cabin, charmed and
held me. He may be uneducated, but he certainly knows how to express the
significance of the written word. I can hear him now, as I shall always
hear him, the primal melancholy vibrant in his voice as he read: “I gathered
me also silver and gold, and the peculiar treasure of kings and of the
provinces; I gat me men singers and women singers, and the delights of the sons
of men, as musical instruments, and that of all sorts. “So I was
great, and increased more than all that were before me in Jerusalem; also my
wisdom returned with me. “Then I
looked on all the works that my hands had wrought and on the labour that I had
laboured to do; and behold, all was vanity and vexation of spirit, and there
was no profit under the sun. “All things
come alike to all; there is one event to the righteous and to the wicked; to
the good and to the clean, and to the unclean; to him that sacrificeth, and to
him that sacrificeth not; as is the good, so is the sinner; and he that
sweareth, as he that feareth an oath. “This is an
evil among all things that are done under the sun, that there is one event unto
all; yea, also the heart of the sons of men is full of evil, and madness is in
their heart while they live, and after that they go to the dead. “For to him
that is joined to all the living there is hope; for a living dog is better than
a dead lion. “For the living
know that they shall die; but the dead know not anything, neither have they any
more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten. “Also their
love, and their hatred, and their envy, is now perished; neither have they any
more a portion for ever in anything that is done under the sun.” “There you
have it, Hump,” he said, closing the book upon his finger and looking up at
me. “The Preacher who was king over Israel in Jerusalem thought as I
think. You call me a pessimist. Is not this pessimism of the
blackest? — ‘All is vanity and vexation of spirit,’ ‘There is no profit under
the sun,’ ‘There is one event unto all,’ to the fool and the wise, the clean
and the unclean, the sinner and the saint, and that event is death, and an evil
thing, he says. For the Preacher loved life, and did not want to die,
saying, ‘For a living dog is better than a dead lion.’ He preferred the
vanity and vexation to the silence and unmovableness of the grave. And so
I. To crawl is piggish; but to not crawl, to be as the clod and rock, is
loathsome to contemplate. It is loathsome to the life that is in me, the
very essence of which is movement, the power of movement, and the consciousness
of the power of movement. Life itself is unsatisfaction, but to look ahead
to death is greater unsatisfaction.” “You are
worse off than Omar,” I said. “He, at least, after the customary
agonizing of youth, found content and made of his materialism a joyous thing.” “Who was
Omar?” Wolf Larsen asked, and I did no more work that day, nor the next, nor
the next. In his
random reading he had never chanced upon the Rubáiyát, and it was to him like a
great find of treasure. Much I remembered, possibly two-thirds of the
quatrains, and I managed to piece out the remainder without difficulty. We
talked for hours over single stanzas, and I found him reading into them a wail
of regret and a rebellion which, for the life of me, I could not discover
myself. Possibly I recited with a certain joyous lilt which was my own,
for — his memory was good, and at a second rendering, very often the first, he
made a quatrain his own — he recited the same lines and invested them with an
unrest and passionate revolt that was well-nigh convincing. I was
interested as to which quatrain he would like best, and was not surprised when
he hit upon the one born of an instant’s irritability, and quite at variance
with the Persian’s complacent philosophy and genial code of life: “What,
without asking, hither hurried Whence? And, without asking, Whither hurried hence! Oh, many a Cup of this forbidden Wine Must drown the memory of that insolence!”
“Great!”
Wolf Larsen cried. “Great! That’s the keynote.
Insolence! He could not have used a better word.” In vain I
objected and denied. He deluged me, overwhelmed me with argument. “It’s not
the nature of life to be otherwise. Life, when it knows that it must
cease living, will always rebel. It cannot help itself. The
Preacher found life and the works of life all a vanity and vexation, an evil
thing; but death, the ceasing to be able to be vain and vexed, he found an
eviler thing. Through chapter after chapter he is worried by the one
event that cometh to all alike. So Omar, so I, so you, even you, for you
rebelled against dying when Cooky sharpened a knife for you. You were
afraid to die; the life that was in you, that composes you, that is greater
than you, did not want to die. You have talked of the instinct of
immortality. I talk of the instinct of life, which is to live, and which,
when death looms near and large, masters the instinct, so called, of
immortality. It mastered it in you (you cannot deny it), because a crazy
Cockney cook sharpened a knife. “You are
afraid of him now. You are afraid of me. You cannot deny it.
If I should catch you by the throat, thus,” — his hand was about my throat and
my breath was shut off, — “and began to press the life out of you thus, and
thus, your instinct of immortality will go glimmering, and your instinct of
life, which is longing for life, will flutter up, and you will struggle to save
yourself. Eh? I see the fear of death in your eyes. You beat
the air with your arms. You exert all your puny strength to struggle to
live. Your hand is clutching my arm, lightly it feels as a butterfly
resting there. Your chest is heaving, your tongue protruding, your skin
turning dark, your eyes swimming. ‘To live! To live! To
live!’ you are crying; and you are crying to live here and now, not
hereafter. You doubt your immortality, eh? Ha! ha! You are
not sure of it. You won’t chance it. This life only you are certain
is real. Ah, it is growing dark and darker. It is the darkness of
death, the ceasing to be, the ceasing to feel, the ceasing to move, that is
gathering about you, descending upon you, rising around you. Your eyes
are becoming set. They are glazing. My voice sounds faint and
far. You cannot see my face. And still you struggle in my
grip. You kick with your legs. Your body draws itself up in knots
like a snake’s. Your chest heaves and strains. To live! To live!
To live — ” I heard no
more. Consciousness was blotted out by the darkness he had so graphically
described, and when I came to myself I was lying on the floor and he was
smoking a cigar and regarding me thoughtfully with that old familiar light of curiosity
in his eyes. “Well, have
I convinced you?” he demanded. “Here take a drink of this. I want
to ask you some questions.” I rolled my
head negatively on the floor. “Your arguments are too — er — forcible,” I
managed to articulate, at cost of great pain to my aching throat. “You’ll be
all right in half-an-hour,” he assured me. “And I promise I won’t use any
more physical demonstrations. Get up now. You can sit on a chair.” And, toy
that I was of this monster, the discussion of Omar and the Preacher was
resumed. And half the night we sat up over it. |