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XI
AT SEA ONE does not seem really to
have got out-of-doors till he goes to sea. On the land he is shut in by
the
hills, or the forests, or more or less housed by the sharp lines of his
horizon. But at sea he finds the roof taken off, the walls taken down;
he is no
longer in the hollow of the earth's hand, but upon its naked back, with
nothing
between him and the immensities. He is in the great cosmic
out-of-doors, as
much so as if voyaging to the moon or to Mars. An astronomic solitude
and
vacuity surround him; his only guides and landmarks are stellar; the
earth has
disappeared; the horizon has gone; he has only the sky and its orbs
left; this
cold, vitreous, blue-black liquid through which the ship plows is not
water,
but some denser form of the cosmic ether. He can now see the curve of
the
sphere which the hills hid from him; he can study astronomy under
improved
conditions. If he was being borne through the interplanetary spaces on
an
immense shield, his impressions would not perhaps be much different. He
would
find the same vacuity, the same blank or negative space, the same
empty,
indefinite, oppressive out-of-doors. For it must be admitted that
a voyage at sea is more impressive to the imagination than to the
actual
sense. The world is left behind; all standards of size, of
magnitude, of
distance, are vanished; there is no size, no form, no perspective; the
universe
has dwindled to a little circle of crumpled water, that journeys with
you day
after day, and to which you seem bound by some enchantment. The sky
becomes a
shallow, close-fitting dome, or else a pall of cloud that seems ready
to
descend upon you. You cannot see or realize the vast and vacant
surrounding;
there is nothing to define it or set it off. Three thousand miles of
ocean
space are less impressive than three miles bounded by rugged mountain
walls. Indeed, the grandeur of form, of magnitude, of
distance, of
proportion, are only upon shore. A voyage across the Atlantic is an
eight or
ten day sail through vacancy. There is no sensible progress; you pass
no fixed
points. Is it the steamer that is moving, or is it the sea? or is it
all a
dance and illusion of the troubled brain? Yesterday, to-day, and
to-morrow, you
are in the same parenthesis of nowhere. The three hundred or more miles
the
ship daily makes is ideal, not real. Every night the stars dance and
reel there
in the same place amid the rigging; every morning the sun comes up from
behind
the same wave, and staggers slowly across the sinister sky. The eye
becomes
a-hungry for form, for permanent lines, for a horizon wall to lift up
and keep
off the sky, and give it a sense of room. One understands why sailors
become an
imaginative and superstitious race; it is the reaction from this narrow
horizon
in which they are pent, — this ring of fate surrounds and
oppresses them. They
escape by invoking the aid of the supernatural. In the sea itself there
is far
less to stimulate the imagination than in the varied forms and colors
of the
land. How cold, how merciless, how elemental it looks! The only things that look
familiar at sea are the clouds. These are messengers from home, and how
weary
and disconsolate they appear, stretching out along the horizon, as if
looking
for a hill or mountain-top to rest upon, — nothing to hold
them up, — a roof
without walls, a span without piers. One gets the impression that they
are
grown faint, and must presently, if they reach much farther, fall into
the sea.
But when the rain came, it seemed like mockery or irony on the part of
the clouds.
Did one vaguely believe, then, that the clouds would respect the sea,
and
withhold their needless rain? No, they treated it as if it were a
mill-pond, or
a spring-run, too insignificant to make any exceptions to. One bright Sunday, when the
surface of the sea was like glass, a long chain of cloud-mountains lay
to the
south of us all day, while the rest of the sky was clear. How
they glowed
in the strong sunlight, their summits shining like a bouquet of full
moons, and
making a broad, white, or golden path upon the water! They came out of
the
southwest, an endless procession of them, and tapered away in the
east.
They were the piled, convoluted, indolent clouds of midsummer,
— thunder-clouds
that had retired from business; the captains of the storm in easy
undress. All
day they filed along there, keeping the ship company. How the eye
reveled in
their definite, yet ever-changing, forms! Their under or base line was
as
straight and continuous as the rim of the ocean. The
substratum of air
upon which they rested was like a uniform layer of granite rock,
invisible, but
all-resisting; not one particle of these vast cloud-mountains, so
broken and
irregular in their summits, sank below this aerial granite
boundary. The
equilibrium of the air is frequently such that the under-surface of the
clouds
is like a ceiling. It is a fair-weather sign, whether upon the sea or
upon the
land. One may frequently see it in a mountainous district,
when the
fog-clouds settle down, and blot out all the tops of the mountains
without one
fleck of vapor going below a given line which runs above every valley,
as
uniform as the sea-level. It is probable that in fair weather
the
atmosphere always lies in regular strata in this way, and that it is
the
displacement and mixing up of these by some unknown cause that produces
storms. As the sun neared the
horizon these cloud-masses threw great blue shadows athwart each other,
which
afforded the eye a new pleasure. Late one afternoon the
clouds assumed a still more friendly and welcome shape. A long, purple,
irregular range of them rose up from the horizon in the northwest,
exactly
simulating distant mountains. The sun sank behind them, and
threw out
great spokes of light as from behind my native Catskills. Then
gradually a low,
wooded shore came into view along their base. It proved to be a
fog-bank lying
low upon the water, but it copied exactly, in its forms and outlines, a
flat,
umbrageous coast. You could see distinctly where it ended, and where
the water
began. I sat long on that side of the ship, and let my willing eyes
deceive
themselves. I could not divest myself of the comfortable feeling
inspired by
the prospect. It was to the outward sense what dreams and reveries are
to the
inward. That blind, instinctive love of the land, — I did not
know how
masterful and involuntary the impulse was, till I found myself warming
up
toward that phantom coast. The empty void of the sea was partly filled,
if only
with a shadow. The inhuman desolation of the ocean
was blotted out
for a moment, in that direction at least. What phantom-huggers we are
upon sea
or upon land! It made no difference that I knew this to be a sham
coast. I
could feel its friendly influence all the same, even when my back was
turned. In summer, fog seems to lie
upon the Atlantic in great shallow fleeces, looking, I dare say, like
spots of
mould or mildew from an elevation of a few miles. These fog-banks are
produced
by the deep cold currents rising to the surface, and coming in contact
with the
warmer air. One may see them far in advance, looking so shallow that it
seems
as if the great steamer must carry her head above them. But she does
not quite
do it. When she enters this obscurity, there begins the hoarse
bellowing of her
great whistle. As one dozes in his berth or sits in the cabin reading,
there
comes a vague impression that we are entering some port or harbor, the
sound is
so welcome, and is so suggestive of the proximity of other vessels. But
only
once did our loud and repeated hallooing awaken any response.
Everybody heard
the answering whistle out of the thick obscurity ahead, and was on the
alert.
Our steamer instantly slowed her engines and redoubled her tootings.
The two
vessels soon got the bearing of each other, and the stranger passed us
on the
starboard side, the hoarse voice of her whistle alone revealing her
course to
us. Late one afternoon, as we
neared the Banks, the word spread on deck that the knobs and pinnacles
of a
thunder-cloud sunk below the horizon, and that deeply and sharply
notched the
western rim of the sea, were icebergs. The captain was quoted as
authority. He
probably encouraged the delusion. The jaded passengers wanted a new
sensation.
Everybody was willing, even anxious, to believe them icebergs, and some
persons
would have them so, and listened coldly and reluctantly to any proof to
the
contrary. What we want to believe, what it suits our convenience, or
pleasure,
or prejudice, to believe, one need not go to sea to learn what slender
logic
will incline us to believe. To a firm, steady gaze, these icebergs were
seen to
be momently changing their forms, new chasms opening, new pinnacles
rising: but
these appearances were easily accounted for by the credulous; the ice
mountains
were rolling over, or splitting asunder. One of the rarest
things in the
average cultivated man or woman is the capacity to receive and weigh
evidence
touching any natural phenomenon, especially at sea. If the captain had
deliberately said that the shifting forms there on the horizon were
only a
school of whales playing at leap-frog, all the women and half the men
among the
passengers would have believed him. In going to England in early
May, we encountered the fine weather, the warmth and the sunshine as of
June,
that had been "central" over the British Islands for a week or more,
five or six hundred miles from shore. We had come up from lower
latitudes, and
it was as if we had ascended a hill and found summer at the top, while
a cold,
backward spring yet lingered in the valley. But on our return in early
August,
the positions of spring and summer were reversed. Scotland was cold and
rainy,
and for several days at sea you could in the distance hardly tell the
sea from
the sky, all was so gray and misty. In mid-Atlantic we ran into the
American
climate. The great continent, basking there in the western sun, and
glowing
with midsummer heat, made itself felt to the centre of this briny void.
The sea
detached itself sharply from the sky, and became like a shield of
burnished
steel, which the sky surrounded like a dome of glass. For four
successive
nights the sun sank clear in the wave, sometimes seeming to melt and
mingle
with the ocean. One night a bank of mist seemed to impede his setting.
He
lingered a long while partly buried in it, then slowly disappeared as
through a
slit in the vapor, which glowed red-hot, a mere line of fire, for some
moments
afterward. As we neared home the heat became severe. We were going down the hill into a fiery valley. Vast stretches of the sea were like glass bending above the long, slow heaving of the primal ocean. Swordfish lay basking here and there on the surface, too lazy to get out of the way of the ship: —
Occasionally a whale would
blow, or show his glistening back, attracting a crowd to the railing.
One
morning a whale plunged spitefully through the track of the ship but a
few
hundred yards away. But the prettiest sight in
the way of animated nature was the shoals of dolphins occasionally seen
during
these brilliant torrid days, leaping and sporting, and apparently
racing with
the vessel. They would leap in pairs from the glassy surface
of one swell
of the steamer across the polished chasm into the next swell, frisking
their
tails and doing their best not to be beaten. They were like
fawns or
young kine sporting in a summer meadow. It was the only touch
of mirth,
or youth and jollity, I saw in the grim sea. Savagery and
desolation make
up the prevailing expression here. The sea-fowls have weird and
disconsolate
cries, and appear doomed to perpetual solitude. But these
dolphins know
what companionship is, and are in their own demesne. When one sees them
bursting out of the waves, the impression is that school is just out;
there
come the boys, skipping and laughing, and, seeing us just passing, cry
to one
another: "Now for a race! Hurrah, boys! We can beat 'em!" One notices any change in the course of the ship by the stars at night. For nearly a week Venus sank nightly into the sea far to the north of us. Our course coming home is south-southwest. Then, one night, as you promenade the deck, you see, with a keen pleasure, Venus through the rigging dead ahead. The good ship has turned the corner; she has scented New York harbor, and is making straight for it, with New England far away there on her right. Now sails and smoke-funnels begin to appear. All ocean paths converge here: full-rigged ships, piled with canvas, are passed, rocking idly upon the polished surface; sails are seen just dropping below the horizon, phantom ships without hulls, while here and there the black smoke of some steamer tarnishes the sky. Now we pass steamers that left New York but yesterday; the City of Rome — looking, with her three smoke-stacks and her long hull, like two steamers together — creeps along the southern horizon, just ready to vanish behind it. Now she stands in the reflected light of a great white cloud which makes a bright track upon the water like the full moon. Then she slides on into the dim and even dimmer distance, and we slide on over the tropic sea, and, by a splendid run, just catch the tide at the moment of its full, early the next morning, and pass the bar off Sandy Hook without a moment of time or an inch of water to spare. |