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I
A TWILIGHT EPIPHANY The
three worlds worship the sound of the string that twanged of old like
the hum
of bees1 as it slipped from faint Love's faltering hand and
fell at
his feet unstrung, the bow unbent and the shaft unsped, as if to beg
for mercy
from that other shaft of scorching flame that shot from the
bow-despising brow
of the moony-crested god. FAR down in the southern quarter, at the very end of the Great Forest, just where the roots of its outmost trees are washed by the waves of the eastern sea, there was of old a city, which stood on the edge of land and water, like as the evening moon hangs where light and darkness meet. And just outside the city wall where the salt sand drifts in the wind, there was a little old ruined empty temple of the Lord of the Moony Tire, whose open door was, as it were, guarded by two sin-destroying images of the Deity and his wife, one on the right of the threshold and the other on the left, looking as if they had suddenly started asunder, surprised by the crowd of devotees, to make a way between. And on an evening long ago, when the sun had finished setting, Maheshwara was returning from Lanka to his own home on Kailas, with Umá in his arms. So as he went, he looked down, and saw the temple away below. And he said to his beloved: Come, now, let us go down, and revisit this little temple, which has stood so long without us. And it looks white in the moon's rays, as if it had turned pale, for fear that we have forgotten it. So when
they had
descended, Maheshwara said again: See how these two rude and mutilated
effigies
that are meant for thee and me stand, as it were, waiting, like bodies
for
their souls. Let us enter in, and occupy, and sanctify these images,2
and rest for a little while, before proceeding to thy father's peaks.
And if I
am not mistaken, our presence will be opportune, and this deserted
temple will
presently be visited by somebody who stands in sore need of our
assistance,
which as long as they remain untenanted these our images cannot give
him, since
they have even lost their hands.3 And accordingly they
entered, each
into his own image, and remained absolutely still, as though the stone
was just
the stone it always was, and nothing more. And yet those stony deities
glistened in the full moon's light, as though the presence of deity had
lent
them lustre of their own, that laughed as though to say: See, now we
are as
white as the very foam at our feet. So as they stood, silent, and listening to the sound of the sea, all at once there came a man who ran towards them. And taking off his turban, he cast it at the great god's feet, and fell on his face himself. And after a while, he looked up, and joined his hands, and said: O thou Enemy of Love, now there is absolutely no help for me but in the sole of thy foot. For when the sun rose this morning, the Queen was found lying drowned, and all broken to pieces, in the sea foam under the palace wall. And when they ran to tell the King, they found him also lying dead, where he sleeps on his palace roof that hangs over the sea, with a dagger in his heart. And the city is all in uproar, for loss to understand it, and Gangádhara the minister has made of me a victim, by reason of an old grudge. And now my head will be the forfeit, unless I can discover the guilty before the rising of another sun. And thou who knowest all things, past, present, or to come, art become my only refuge. Grant me, of thy favour, a boon, and reveal to me the secret, for who but thyself can possibly discover how the King and Queen have come to this extraordinary end. So as he
spoke,
gazing as if in desperation at Maheshwara, all at once, as if moved to
compassion, that image of the Deity turned from the wall towards him,
and
nodded at him its stony head: so that in his terror that unhappy mortal
nearly
left his own body, and fell to the ground in a swoon. And Maheshwara
gazed at
him intently, as he lay, and put him, by his yoga,4
asleep. And the Daughter of the Snow said softly: O Moony-crested, who
is this
unlucky person, and what is the truth of this whole matter, for I am
curious to
know? And Maheshwara said slowly: O Snowy One, this is the chief of the
night
watch of the city; and be under no alarm. For while he sleeps, I will
reveal
the truth to him, in a magic dream: making him as it were a third
person, to
overhear our conversation. And I will do the same to the prime
minister, so
that in the morning, finding their two dreams tally, he will gain
credit and
save his life. Thereupon Párwatí said again: O Lord of creation, save
mine
also. For I am, as it were, dying of curiosity, to hear how all this
came
about. So then,
after a
while, that omniscient Deity said slowly: All this has come about, by
reason of
a dream. And Gauri said: How could a dream be the cause of death, both
to the
King and Queen? Then said Maheshwara: Not only is there danger in
dreaming, but
the greatest. Hast thou not seen thy father's woody sides reflected in
the
still mirror of his own tarns? And the goddess said: What then? And
Maheshwara
said: Hast thou not marked how the reflection painted on the water
contains
beauty, drawn, as it were, from its depths, greater by far than does
the very
thing it echoes, of which it is nothing but an exact copy? And Párwatí
said:
Aye, so it does. Then said Maheshwara: So it is with dreams. For their
danger
lies in this very beauty, and like pictures upon quiet water, which
contains
absolutely nothing at all, below, they show men, sleeping, visions of
unrealisable beauty, which, being nothing whatever but copies of what
they have
seen, awake, possess notwithstanding an additional fascination, not to
be found
in the originals, which fills them with insatiable longing and an utter
contempt of all that their waking life contains, as in the present
instance: so
that they sacrifice all in pursuit of a hollow phantom, trying to
achieve
impossibility, by bringing mind-begotten dream into the sphere of
reality,
whither it cannot enter but by ceasing to be dream. But the worst of
all is, as
in this King's case, when dreaming is intermingled with the
reminiscences of a
former birth: for then it becomes fatality. And Párwatí said: How is
that? Then
said Maheshwara: Every soul that is born anew lies buried in oblivion,
having
utterly forgotten all its previous existence, which has become for it
as a
thing that has never been. And yet, sometimes, when impressions are
very vivid,
and memory very strong, here and there an individual soul, steeped, as
it were,
in the vat of its own experience, and becoming permanently dyed, as if
with
indigo, will laugh, so to say, at oblivion, and carry over indelible
impressions, from one birth to another, and so live on, haunted by dim
recollections that throng his memory like ghosts, and resembling one
striving
vainly to recall the loveliness and colour of a flower of which he can
remember
absolutely nothing but the scent, whose lost fragrance hangs about him,
goading
memory to ineffectual effort, and thus filling him with melancholy
which he can
never either dispel or understand. So as he
spoke,
there came past the temple door a young man of the Shabara caste,
resembling a
tree for his height, carrying towards the forest a young woman of
slender
limbs, who was struggling as he held her, and begging to be released;
to which
he answered only by laughing as he held her tighter, and giving her
every now
and then a kiss as he went along, so that as they passed by, there fell
from her
hair a champak flower,
which lay
on the ground unheeded after they disappeared. And the Daughter of the
Mountain
exclaimed: See, O Moony-crested, this flower laid, as it were, at thy
feet as a
suppliant for her protection: for this is a case for thy interference,
to save
innocence from evildoing. And
Maheshwara
looked at her with affection in his smile. And he said: Not so, O
mountain-born: thou art deceived: since this is a case where
interference would
be bitterly resented, not only by the robber, but his prey: for
notwithstanding
all her feigned reluctance, this slender one is inwardly delighted, and
desires
nothing less than to be taken at her word. For this also is a pair of
lovers,
who resemble very closely those other lovers, whose story I am just
about to
tell thee: as indeed all lovers are very much the same. For Love is
tyranny,
and the essence of the sweetness of its nectar is a despotic authority
that is
equally delicious to master and to slave. For just as every male lover
loves to
play the tyrant, so does every woman love to play the slave, so much,
that
unless her love contains for her the consciousness of slavery, it is
less than
nothing in her own eyes, and she does not love at all. And know, that
as
nothing in the world is so hateful to a woman as force, exerted on her
by a man
she does not love, so nothing fills her with such supreme intoxication
as to be
masterfully made by her lover to go along the road of her own
inclination,
since so she gets her way without seeming to consent, and is extricated
from
the dilemma of deciding between her scruples and her wish. For
indecision is
the very nature of every woman, and it is a torture to her, to decide,
no
matter how. And even when she does decide, she does so, generally as a
victim,
driven by circumstances or desperation, and never as a judge, as in the
case of
both those women who determined the destiny of this dead King, the one
deciding
in his favour, precisely because he would allow her no choice, and the
other
very much against him indeed: and yet both, so to say, without any good
reason
at all. For women resemble yonder waves of the sea, things compounded
of
passion and emotion, with impulses for arguments, and agitation for
energy, for
ever playing, fretting, and moaning with laughter and tears of brine
and foam:
and like feminine incarnations of the instability of water, one and the
same
essence running through a multitude of contradictory and beautiful
qualities
and forms: being cold and hard as ice, and soft and white as snow, and
still as
pools, and crooked as rivers, now floating in heaven like clouds and
mists and
vapours, and now plunging, like cataracts and waterfalls, into the
abyss of
hell. Is not the same water bitter as death to the drowning man, and
sweeter
than a draught of nectar, saving the life of the traveller dying of
thirst in
the desert sand? So, now,
listen,
while I tell thee the story of this King. And as he
began to
speak, the wind fell, and the sea slumbered, and the moon crept
silently
further up and up the sky. And little by little, the dark shadows stole
out
stealthily, moving, as it were, on tiptoe, and hung in corners, here
and there,
like ghosts about the little shrine, before which the sleeping man lay
white in
the moon's rays, as still as if he were a corpse. And the deep tones of
the
Great God's voice seemed like a muttered spell, to lull to sleep the
living and
assemble the dead to hear, with demons for dwárapálas
at the door of an ashy tomb. _______________ 1 The bowstring of
Love's bow is made
of a line of bees. Love was reduced to ashes by fire from Shiwa's extra
eye,
for audaciously attempting to subject that great ascetic to his own
power. 2 The real divinity of a
Hindoo
temple is not the images outside on its walls, but the symbol (whatever
it be)
inside. 3 A common feature
throughout India.
Everywhere they went, the devotees of the Koràn used to smash and maim
the
Hindoo idols. 4 What we should call,
in such a
case, mesmerism: the power of concentrated will. There is something in
it,
after all. |